Some Perspective On Where I Am Going

DSC01943Modern life is so complicated. We have so many passwords to remember and things to check on: Email, voicemail, snail mail, podcast, simulcast, broadcast. We live in a world of GPS and Navigation. Our technology speaks for us and tells us what to do. We listen to it, sometimes to our own detriment.(Have you seen the warnings about not turning onto train tracks just because the GPS tells you to turn right?) I have been on a quest to find meaning. I google it constantly.  It is tough to get perspective when you are “in” something. Someone else looking at me from a different vantage point can see everything I am doing and quickly and easily point out my pitfalls and flaws. It is easy to critique and hard to take those suggestions and employ them regularly and without fail. You can see someone else’s probems more objectively than your own. My life often feels like a giant game of Tetris. I can complete a super hard level, but there is no time to revel in it. What happens next? I level up and it is more challenging. The pieces drop into my lap at a faster rate of speed. My file cabinets and computer drives are filling up. My storage space is running low. I could buy more, but it won’t help me find what I am looking for in a pinch. I have over 127,000 photos in my iPhoto. 18 years of my life documented. I have been to a lot of cool places and taken some amazing shots. I was never great at deleting. I was also never good enough at sharing. I fantasized about selling my photos at fancy galleries.  I did a bunch of shows when I had more time on my hands. Nothing really came of it. I have been deleting as much as I am adding, so the growth of my collection has slowed. It has led me to the question of the week for me, which is: if things are getting harder, yet I am getting better at managing, are they ultimately the same? Last week I asked someone I knew how they were and they said,”Another day that ends in y.” I hadn’t heard that saying before.  I googled it (as I am apt to do) and it is a lyric from a country song. Though when I heard it, it hit me as “Another day that ends in ‘WHY’?” Where do you look to find your perspective?

 

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